SPEECHLESS

( PLS. SEE THE IMAGE ENTITLED SPEECHLESS, IN THE LOWER PART OF THIS PAGE or OPEN THE LINK AT THE END OF THIS ARTICLE TO SEE THE VIDEO)

Only a stone of heart will not be touched with this clip. I almost cried when I saw it. Know why? I'm guilty. My busy life kept me away from my parents. I seldom call them. But I love them. And I know they love me too.

It's embarrassing but yes, I almost cried. It made me speechless.

I remember my old patients when I was working in a hospital as a staff nurse. Like the descriptions in the video, most of them were weak, sensitive and had a hearing,visual and speech impairment. I saw loneliness in their eyes. And if I made them smile, it's one-of-a-kind achievement.

And now that I saw this video, I thought of my parents of course. They are not that old yet. It's just that after I watched it, questions came: What if time will come that they will need me for the same reasons, would I be there for them? Would I be patient enough to understand them the way they did when I was a little kid? What if I won't? And many what if's came into my mind....

Speechless. Because these words are not from my mouth. These are the words of my soul. It's like something has awaken it from a very long sleep. And I needed it. I have so many goals to achieve and priorities to commit that made me so busy and taken for granted the persons who know me inside and out. The one who made me this far. My inspiration. My parents.

I'm sorry to my Mom and Dad for being away from you. I know you're happy for me and I know you miss me so much. But I want you to know that I'm always thinking both of you. I know I don't text or call more often, but every night before I sleep, I pray to God that He will protect all of you. There were nights when I felt lonely, I just cried and wished that you're with me. But God is really good. He let us to be part from each other to let us know how much we care. I remember our odd days together. The times that seemed like we were not a family. The times that we gave each other a heart ache. But now I understand. No one is perfect. I have forgiven you for all your shortcomings. And I hope you will forgive me too. After all, the misunderstandings that we had made us strong. Thank you for one reason. Thank you for loving me. I love you too. Someday, we will be together again.

I would like to give a million thanks for the one who made the message in this video. It's the best inspirational message that I've read.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yXdPId8ssxY

The Chronicles of Ferdinand Marcos and Yamashita Treasure

A myth or reality?

I wrote here two stories about this treasure and why it's related to the late former president Marcos.

Yamashita's gold, also referred to as the Yamashita treasure, is the name given to the alleged loot stolen in Southeast Asia by Japanese forces during World War II and hidden in caves, tunnels and underground complexes in the Philippines. It is named for the Japanese General Tomoyuki Yamashita, nicknamed "The Tiger of Malaya". Though accounts that the treasure remains hidden in Philippines have lured treasure hunters from around the world for over fifty years, its existence is disputed by most experts.The rumored treasure has been the subject of a complex lawsuit that was filed in a Hawaiian state court in 1988 involving Philippine treasure hunter, Rogelio Roxas, and former Philippines president, Ferdinand Marcos.
(Source: Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia)





A Yamashita treasure map/sketch left and handover by a Japanese General to his Filipino masseur before he was killed last WWII.










Why the former president Marcos was involved in the legendary treasure?

Story I.

In March 1988, a Philippine treasure hunter named Rogelio Roxas filed a lawsuit in the state of Hawaii against the former president of the Philippines, Ferdinand Marcos and his wife Imelda Marcos for theft and human rights abuses. Roxas claimed that in Baguio City in 1961 he met the son of a former member of the Japanese army who mapped for him the location of the legendary Yamashita Treasure. Roxas claimed a second man, who served as Yamashita's interpreter during the Second World War, told him of visiting an underground chamber there where stores of gold and silver were kept, and who told of a golden buddha kept at a convent located near the underground chambers. Roxas claimed that within the next few years he formed a group to search for the treasure, and obtained a permit for the purpose from a relative of Ferdinand, Judge Pio Marcos. In 1971, Roxas claimed, he and his group uncovered an enclosed chamber on state lands near Baguio City where he found bayonets, samurai swords, radios, and skeletal remains dressed in a Japanese military uniform. Also found in the chamber, Roxas claimed, were a three foot high golden colored buddha and numerous stacked crates which filled an area approximately 6 feet x 6 feet x 35 feet. He claimed he opened just one of the boxes, and found it packed with gold bullion. He said he took from the chamber the golden buddha, which he estimated to weigh 1,000 kilograms, and one box with twenty-four gold bars, and hid them in his home. He claimed he resealed the chamber for safekeeping until he could arrange the removal of the remaining boxes which he suspected were also filled with gold bars. Roxas said he sold seven of the gold bars from the opened box, and sought potential buyers for the golden buddha. Two individuals representing prospective buyers examined and tested the metal in the buddha, Roxas said, and reported it was made of solid, 20 carat gold. It was soon after this, Roxas claimed, that President Ferdinand Marcos learned of Roxas' discovery and ordered him arrested, beaten, and the buddha and remaining gold seized. Roxas alleged that in retaliation to his vocal campaign to reclaim the buddha and the remainder of the treasure taken from him, Ferdinand continued to have Roxas threatened, beaten and eventually incarcerated for over a year.
Following his release, Roxas put his claims against Marcos on hold until Ferdinand lost the presidency in 1986. But in 1988, Roxas and the Golden Budha Corporation, which now held the ownership rights to the treasure Roxas claims was stolen from him, filed suit against Ferdinand and wife Imelda in a Hawaiian state court seeking damages for the theft and the surrounding human rights abuses committed against Roxas. Roxas died on the eve of trial, but prior to his death he gave the deposition testimony that would be later used in evidence. In 1996, the Roxas estate and the Golden Budha Corporation received what was then largest judgment ever awarded in history, $22 billion which with interest increased to $40.5 billion. In 1998, The Hawaii Supreme Court held that there was sufficient evidence to support the jury's finding that Roxas found the treasure and that Marcos converted it. However, the court reversed the damage award, holding that the $22 billion award of damages for the chamber full of gold was too speculative as there was no evidence of quantity or quality, and ordered a new hearing on the value of the golden buddha and 17 bars of gold only.After several more years of legal proceedings, the Golden Budha Corporation obtained a final judgment against Imelda Marcos to the extent of her interest in the Marcos estate in the principal amount of $13,275,848.37 and Roxas’ estate obtained a $6 million judgment on the claim for human right abuse. (Source: Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia)

The golden buddha said to be discovered by Rogelio Roxas.






Story II. This account is scary.

In a new book, Gold Warriors: America’s Secret Recovery of Yamashita’s Gold, Seagrave and his co-author (his wife, Peggy) have affirmed virtually all of what The Spotlight reported about Marcos and his rise to power-and of his ultimate ouster, including the reasons why.
But even more than that, the Seagraves have outlined the existence of an extraordinary hidden cache of gold-looted by infamous Japanese warlord Yamashita Tomoyuki from the nations of Asia prior to and during World War II—much of which (but not all) was later seized by American forces and used to fund what was called the Black Eagle Trust, a multi-national covert operations treasure chest utilized during the Cold War and up until, apparently, even today. And yes, Marcos himself recovered a big chunk of the treasure. This was, as The Spotlight said to much criticism, the real source of his wealth.
Big names such as former U.S. Secretary of State John Foster Dulles, John J. McCloy, head of the World Bank, General Edward Lansdale and others are just a few of the familiar figures whose roles in the shadowy Black Eagle Trust are recounted by the Seagraves. The tentacles of this massive treasure reach throughout the big banks of the world today and its economic impact has never before been outlined in such amazing detail.
It seems that no American president has been in the dark about the existence of this gold horde—much of which still remains hidden, buried, in the Philippine islands and elsewhere in the Pacific and which is still the subject of wide-ranging treasure hunts.
According to the Seagraves, as late as March 2001—in the early weeks of the newly-minted George W. Bush administration, associates of the Bush family were evidently deeply involved in the treasure-hunting and in efforts to profit from the sale and transfer of the recovered treasure. And what is of particular note is that, so say the Seagraves, two U.S. Navy ships were being utilized in the effort.
What about the Marcos connection? The Spotlight asserted that Marcos’s actual wealth—in unaccounted billions—stemmed from the fact that Marcos had actually recovered a large cache of the hidden gold in the days following the end of World War II. Critics said The Spotlight was wrong and that Marcos had actually stolen billions from his nation’s treasury. Now, however, the Seagraves cite no less an authority than retired General John Singlaub, a vaunted hero of both World War II and Korea who finished up his career as the top U.S. military commander in Korea, dismissed by then-President Jimmy Carter.
Singlaub actually became quite active in the covert American efforts to recover the “Yamashita treasure” and, according to Singlaub, “I knew from past experience that stories of buried Japanese gold in the Philippines were legitimate. Marcos’s $12 billion fortunate actually came from [this] treasure, not skimmed-off U.S. aid. But Marcos had only managed to rake off a dozen or so of the biggest sites. That left well over a hundred untouched.”
This, of course, means that Yamashita’s gold—which amounts to certainly hundreds of billions in value, probably trillions—was a real source of power and influence for Marcos and, in the end, proved not only to be a source of his rise to power, but, ultimately, his undoing.
The Seagraves relate—echoing The Spotlight—that when Marcos demanded a higher-than-usual commission for lending a portion of his gold horde to the Reagan administration in order to prop up a Reagan scheme to manipulate the world gold market, this was the beginning of Marcos’ downfall. As a consequence, then U.S. CIA-Director William Casey set in motion the riots and protests that began creating trouble for Marcos in the streets of Manila.
Although Casey flew to Manila, along with U.S. Treasury Secretary Donald Regen, CIA economist Professor Higdon and an attorney, Lawrence Kreager, to give Marcos a “last chance”, the Philippine nationalist would not buckle. Higdon told Marcos that he would be out of power “in two weeks” for not appeasing the international banking houses and their agents in the American administration.
The Seagraves report that a source close to Marcos advised them that Marcos was then approached by an emissary from David Rockefeller’s Trilateral Commission asking Marcos to contribute $54 billion in gold bullion to a so-called “global development fund”. Marcos’ response was to consign the Trilateral demand into a waste basket.
In no short order, of course, Marcos was forced from office and flown to Hawaii with his family where they were held effectively under house arrest. Marcos and his wife told many people—including reporters from The Spotlight—that they had never expected to be taken to Hawaii, that they had, instead, expected to be flown to safety from Manila to Marco’s home island of Ilocos Norte.
In the meantime, billions of dollars worth of gold certificates that the Marcos [couple] had taken with them were confiscated by the U.S. government. But when the Marcoses demanded the return of the certificates, the U.S. said the certificates were “fake”.
In other words, the Reagan administration casually and ruthlessly stole billions from the Marcos, at the same time helping perpetuate the media myth that the Marcos family had stolen billions from their own nation’s treasury.
(And it should be noted, for the historical record, that one of the key behind-the-scenes Reagan administration operatives plotting against Marcos was one Paul Wolfowitz, now internationally known today as one of the prime movers behind the American effort to depose Saddam Hussein—probably no coincidence considering Saddam’s refusal, like Marcos, to surrender his nation’s sovereignty to international banking interests.)
The Seagraves also outline—and this will interest many people—the strange dealings of the John Birch Society (as far back as the mid-1970s) in a scheme to cut business arrangements with the Marcos regime in the marketing of some $20 billion of Marcos’ private gold horde. These deals fell through and, in the end, the Birchers fell out with their partners in the scheme. Evidently Congressman Larry McDonald (D-Ga.), then a leader of the Birch group, was privy to these events and thus evidently knew quite a bit about the international Black Eagle Trust at the time of his death. [The “shoot down” of flight KAL 007 is still surrounded by mystery.]
Considering the fact that The Spotlight was the only American newspaper to honestly report on the behind-the-scenes intrigues that led to the destruction of Ferdinand Marcos, it was no coincidence that after his ouster, Marcos gave The Spotlight several exclusive interviews at his home in exile in Hawaii, pushing The Spotlight to the top of a long list of worldwide newspapers clamoring for the opportunity to interview the fallen leader.
It turns out that, at precisely the time when The Spotlight was interviewing Marcos, a young American CIA operative, Alan Foringer, was deeply involved in the covert operations trying to secure what remained of the Yamashita (and Marcos) gold.
So, it’s probably no coincidence, again, that Foringer popped up at The Spotlight’s offices on a number of occasions, posing as an international businessman. It was only the publication of the Seagrave’s book that exposed precisely who Foringer really was: a CIA figure trying to find out what The Spotlight knew (if anything) about the Marcos treasure. Foringer himself later died under mysterious circumstances, probably a victim of murder.
These are just a few of the revelations appearing in the 332 detail-packed pages of this remarkable new book, one which is thoroughly documented. The Seagraves know that they risked a great deal by bringing out these facts but they say right up front that “if we are murdered, readers will have no difficulty figuring out who ‘they’ are.” (Source: Existence of Secret WWII Gold Horde Confirmed, Exclusive to American Free Press, By Michael Collins Piper, http://www.preferrednetwork.com/GOLD_WARRIORS.htm)

DISCLAIMER:

There are many reports in the world wide web that would link Marcos and Yamashita treasure. There are critics saying everything is fictitious.
I did not intend to connect CIA to my story and to undermine the US government. In fact, I don't know if this is a real one. I published it here in my page just to share this and it's up to my reader if he will believe or not.

And where did I get the idea to write about this?
Simple.
I love conspiracy theories and mysterious reports. Google is such a big help.

Japanese troops during WWII

Scattered Thoughts

I want to express the words that I want to write. But I just can't find the right alphabets, the right words, the right sentences, the right paragraph.

I can't find the right story. That's it.

All in my mind are just like the images above. ABSTRACT.

One hour and thirty three minutes.

I was just staring in the monitor, but still, my mind has scattered thoughts. I can't figure out what kind of story will I be writing. Will it be about the Martial Law in Maguindanao...or the continuation of my last blog about the Story of an RN...or any experiences or lessons I have over the past few days...

But I as I looked at these pictures, I can see there's a beauty in it. And that beauty suddenly made up my mind. It's like I found something. I must borrow the words of the Greek engineer Archimedes when he found the principle of density. "EUREKA!"

The words are bursting out of my brain!

This story is such a different kind of thing coz I found it not so intellectual or intriguing. This is just the bizzare side of me.

Everyone knows that abstracts have beauty. Only that not all can decipher their real meaning.

I truly appreciate the allurement of abstract images but I must admit that it's hard for me to understand them. It's not all about wisdom. Sometimes, people can see it's message but mostly with different perspectives. And it's maybe because their meaning can never be seen with the naked eye but thru emotions. Emotion can see things that most of us find obscure. Just like the abstract paintings. There are no mathematical formula or any scientific procedures for that. It's really difficult to interpret them and for sure, people will have different ideas. Because different people have different emotions at the same time.

But ooopss......

It seems that I am running out of words. And if you'll gonna ask me why?

My thoughts are just scattered again. And I don't understand.

Just like this one.

A story of an R.N.

2:30 p.m.

I was sitting in the departure area of NAIA3. I still had one hour before my flight and so I took a nap.

And before I knew it, a female voice was calling my name because I needed to board on the plane. She said, " It's time to go, sir. You must have slept very well."

"Yeah, I think so" I replied. And I we went inside the plane. The woman, who was a flight attendant, ushered me to my seat.

After the 13-hour trip, the sign "FASTEN YOUR SEATBELT" was switched on. And I heard the captain saying," Ladies and gentlemen, welcome to Los Angeles International Airport."

"At last, finally. I'm here", I said. I felt like coming to the USA was the greatest success of my life.

I took a taxi from the airport to my apartment where my future colleagues were waiting. They welcomed me with a pizza party. Everything was wonderful except that I missed my love ones in the Philippines. How I wished that they were with me in that beautiful place. Yes, everything was beautiful.

Days and months and years have passed.

I had a green card. I was able to buy my own house and my own SUV. I had $145,000.00 in my bank account. I was able to purchase a condominium in The Fort in Manila. I was able to a have a European tour. I worked as staff nurse in L.A, California and Miami, Florida. I played twice in a casino in Las Vegas. I had a successful career.

Then suddenly I asked my self, " What happened to my friends?"

And so I decided to have a vacation once again in the Philippines. I looked for my classmates and former co-workers. I found my best friend in college and I was surprised.

He did not work abroad even a single year in his whole life. I told myself that he's not as successful as me. And I asked him why.

" Many nurses are cramming to leave this country. For them, working abroad means success. And staying here is a failure."

I was astonished with his response. With no doubt, what he said was real. Some students even took the "prestigious" BS Nursing because of their desire to live and work overseas. And because of it's promising greener pasture.

I was also wrong when I thought that my friend being stucked in the Philippines did not succeed. I saw that he was happy with his career life. I guess he had the same kind of happiness I have with my life.

And I realized that success doesn't rely on the things that you have purchased or the countries that you have been to. My friend was satisfied with everything he has done from our college years until that time we met again. That was another meaning of success to me. Satisfaction.

And I was not satisfied yet. I wanted to have millions of dollars in my bank account. I wanted to have my own hacienda. I wanted to travel a lot and learn different languages. I wanted more and more than I have.

I was wrong.

I was not as successful as my bestfriend.

3:20 p.m. NAIA 3

A woman woke me up. I knew she's a flight attendant.

"Oh my God! Am I late?" I asked the woman.

" No Sir, you still have 10 minutes to board the plane", she replied. " You must have slept very well?"

"Sounds familiar." I was talking to myself.

I went inside the plane. The flight attendant ushered me to my seat. I smiled.

Everything was a dream.

The Maguindanao Massacre Insights...

The Philippines is again in the spotlight of the international scene. But this is not the kind of recognition that we received when Manny Pacquiao got the title as one of the world's great boxer. It's all about crime.

The massacre of at least 57 innocent civilians in Maguindanao province led to international condemnation. According to media reports, Mayor Andal Ampatuan Jr., the mayor of Ampatuan town, is the main culprit. He made the order to kill those who were in the convoy of Mangudadatu's supporters, some family members and group of journalists to cover the candidacy for governorship of Buluan vice-mayor Esmael Mangudadatu. Also, there were 15 people who were unconnected with Mangudadatu: they were in two vehicles a short distance from the convoy and taken along with the others for the execution. The convoy was on their way to the provincial capital to file the candidacy papers of Mangudadatu for governorship in next year's national election. It is a position that Ampatuan's father had occupied unopposed since 2001 and which Ampatuan planned to contest to keep the seat in the family.

However, I would like to think out of the box here. Reports said that Mayor Ampatuan surrendered himself and was taken into custody. Ampatuan denies involvement: "The reason I came out is to prove that I am not hiding and that I am not guilty," he told local reporters. And that's exactly my point.

In my own opinion, Ampatuans are not really the criminal here. Someone is trying to set them up.

And how's that? I'm not sure yet.

According again to media reports, both the Mangudadatu and Ampatuan families have blood ties and were allies until the Mangudadatu's last year announced their challenge to governorship. Although the Ampatuan clan are known to run it's own private army but I believe they are not stupid enough to slaughter it's only potential political adversary. Perhaps they know that if that happens, automatically they will be the prime suspect. And yes, you may say that there were witnesses. But how sure are we that those are real witnesses? What if somebody out there planned the killings because he or she wants to be the next governor of the province and stop the Ampatuan dynasty that he/she has to sacrifice lives of other people? Or what if some secret organizations had arranged this hideous atrocity because the Ampatuans made an aberration that they didn't like?

And why is it that the worldwide conviction focuses only on the journalist victims?

I have so many questions. And I hope that these will not remain a question. There must be an answer.